November 18, 2017
Recently I walked into a 13th century church in Croatia. The architecture was spectacular; however, the atmosphere was dim and reverent. Every day at 4 pm the faithful come in and sit staring at a crucifix waiting to recite their rosary. And then it began, the low drone of voices speaking in monotone going thru a ritual of beads. As I stood in the back, it was an honor to view such a hushed commitment of faith, and at the same time I wanted to scream, there is so much more! Ancient daily rituals that required heads to bow and in the dim light repent and pray and leave you dull and without vibrancy.
From the back of this place of reverence I felt God nudge me to look up. Up from the dimly lit pews and up from the mundane drone of the daily act of sitting in a posture of prayer and repentance. Up. Look up. I don’t believe anyone else even noticed, but there at the top of this place of reverence was an explosion of light. A kaleidoscope of color and a declaration to me from God that there is so much more.
I have begun a new journey with God. I have felt the drone of now what do I do? My everyday was to go to work, speak life and love into hurting people, let them know there is so much more to living with purpose and yet when all of what I knew as a daily routine was removed, I found myself with my head down staring at beads. Touching a bead of uncertainty for the next step, touching a bead of what about provision, touching a bead of identity change, touching a bead of loss and hurt, touching beads of what do future designs for me look like and who God wants me to be, the beads seemed dull. I felt numb. Beads, so many beads of loss and change that it could have propelled me into the drone of daily staring at a God who didn’t seem to be on my side. I chose to look up. Up to the colors God has given for my life. Royal blue and purple remind me I am loved as a Daughter of the Most High, brilliant yellow for new life and fresh starts, powerful reds that will inspire me to live an abundant life fully known, fully reliant on who God wants me to be, and a splash of green to desire growth in who I am becoming. I looked up. That dazzling color site enveloped me and reminded me to rise. Looking up helped me realize I am no longer confined to walls of daily beads of time, routine and the enormous tasks that weighed me down. I am free to express the God colors in my life with brilliant freedom.
Matthew 5:14 (MSG) says this; “You’re here to be light, bringing out the God colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re (I’m) going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a blanket, do you? Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand – SHINE!”
Friend, let’s begin a journey together and lift our eyes up. Throw your beads of ritual and regret into the dark chasm we often find ourselves glaring down at and look up. I am determined to completely immerse myself into the God colors for my life. I’m looking up and I am rising.